timing....

today i was feeling discouraged (chris is always a lot more positive than i am).....no particular reason to feel discouraged really.....just little things.....little comments people would make that i, in my ultra-sensitivity interpreted as irritating, insensitive, presuming, unwarranted, etc. it was also friday in a middle school so that could be half the battle! i've been checking my on-line bank statement like an insane person to see if the adoption agency had cashed our check from our application and they hadn't, and they hadn't, and they still haven't. so....i of course jumped to, "something must be wrong, they cashed our first check right away; why not this one, it's probably lost in the mail, we're going to have to re-do the whole thing, chris will tell me 'i told you we should have made copies of the whole thing', on and on......i called our social worker-she wasn't in (that's strange to write....i have a social worker) so in my frustration i went to marshall's--a good remedy. and then, i came home to my poor husband who was sick on the couch and he told me....mandy called.....she said she got her letter today to fill out as one of our references....a letter she would never have gotten if our application hadn't been received. so.....timing....it's an amazing thing....and so is god....too bad my patience isn't.